Change of Focus

I am getting pretty bored with just blogging about my every day activities (I think this is apparent in how little I write), so I have decided to change the focus of this blog.

It was suggested to me today that I begin writing down my dreams. A little known fact about me is that I dream almost every night (and nearly every time I'm asleep PERIOD, even just to nap). I always remember my dreams in very great detail and I rarely forget my dreams the next day. I wrote them down often when I was a child, but stopped the habit when I became a teenager, for no real reason. Anyway, while describing last night's dream to a coworker today, it became apparent that I may need to start doing this again. I think it would be beneficial, creatively, as well as perhaps very insightful.

I will begin with last night's "adventure." For future reference, I will refer to people I know in real-life by initials only. Same with specific locations. I'm still trying to maintain an air of mystery!

JM, MH, and I were at some sort of mall. JM is roughly 6 months pregnant, and other than that, we all look just as we do currently. We have decided to try the newest attraction in this mall: an ice cliff located in the center of the mall overlooking the food court. Basically, you jump off of this ice platform into a pool of water approximately 50 feet below. To get to this cliff you have to walk across a very long, extremely high walkway of sorts that is probably no wider than a standard balance beam.

We each are able to complete our jump safely (as safe as a 6 month pregnant person can be) and go to walk back across the "beam" to the "regular" part of the mall. I am watching JM cross and, just before JM makes it to safety, they lose balance and fall to the food court below. There is a black man sitting alone at a table typing on his laptop. He looks up in horror to see JM falling to where he sits. When JM collides with the man, rather than just crushing him or falling away from him, JM's body literally cuts into the man's.....they are now conjoined, with JM's body sticking out of the man's side, their arms and legs all jumbled together. JM mutters "Oh no...." softly, and then I wake up. It should be noted that MH played no role in this dream whatsoever, other than to take a turn jumping off of the ice cliff.

I had no clue how to interpret this dream on my own. While I may not always do this, I decided to look up online what may be revealed in this very cryptic dream. I will list below what certain elements may mean:

Pregnant: May refer to some aspect of one's life that is growing/developing. Perhaps the friendship between myself and JM?
Ice: Represents a lack of ideas & thoughts, or perhaps a lack of progress. May connect with self-esteem and security issues. This is interesting, because I have just started a new venture that I am hoping will be the complete opposite of this description. Maybe this touches upon my apprehension/nerves here in the early stages.
Cliff: May suggest having reached a critical point in life; the unwillingess to lose control; fear of new challenges and not meeting certain expectations. This most closely resembles what is happening in my real life.
Balancing: Suggests difficulty in weighing one's options. Because I am not the one to have lost balance, am I concerned with JM's decisions lately? Conciously I do not think so.
Falling: In this dream, I believe falling closely relates to the interpretation for "balancing," Ie: losing balance & control... but here again, I am not the one to fall.
Conjoined: I couldn't find an interpretation of this element, but perhaps it means the coming together of everything else in this dream. However, I am still baffled as to why these things were happening to JM and I was just a witness. Fascinating.

I'm actually very excited to sleep now to see what may happen in my head tonight! I hope that by writing these down I am not setting myself up to dream certain things.....